My light colored eyes have photosensitivy and it's getting worse with age, so on Sundays there are only three people in the office and two of us are sensitive to the fluorescents so we do not turn on the lights. When we explained this and asked that Sundays we keep the lights off he did not take kindly to it. In fact he got quite belligerent and pretty much told me to mind my own business. I really thought my eyes were my business but I'll get back to you on that.
The point I'm trying to get at is him and I frequently have small altercations like this and he holds a grudge each and every time. Since I don't share that personality trait I like to move on quickly and be done with it. However there is one trait we do share and that is the self centeredness. I have trouble remembering this, though, when I'm in the middle of it.
So what's my point right? Well, I struggle and I mean really struggle some days to be civil to him. It takes all my human strength which got me to thinking...why am I using human strength? Why haven't I prayed for this enemy like I have others? Yes, in fact every time I have prayed for the betterment of my enemies the ill will towards them has gone away and I've truly become to care so you would think that I would do this first hand. NOPE! I don't. For some reason I like to put myself through grief of my own before I get around to this. It must be the HUMAN in me.
So today I'm going to pray for him. I will pray for his success, salvation, peace and prosperity. At first it may not be what I want but it isn't about me. As much as I sometimes want it to be, it just isn't. Today I will do it because I am supposed to but if the days go as they have in the past, past in time I will want to pray for him and will want every good thing to be his. After all he is just as much God's kiddo as I am.
Mathew 5:43-47
Beautifully written my Sister. Often times it is these people...the ones that challenge our very character that need our prayers the most. So pray with all your heart, and while you are at it, ask God to grant you peace in the storm. Remember to smile at him and offer him the blessings that you offer me...it just might confuse him, and get him thinking why is it that he treats you as he does. Remember something else my precious Sister. For one person who just does not like you...there are 100's more that do!!. I am blessed to have met you and count you a huge blessing in my life. All my love...Always.
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